*insert scream here*

Not digging uni so much anymore. I have another test coming up on Wednesday. This one is for the programming course. I think I'll do better than on my math test. There's really no way I can do worse. Even if there are assignments with math in them.

Weekend was pretty crappy. I could've gone to the gym, but didn't of course. Getting up around 10am in the weekend is proving to be impossible. That's about 80 euro for the gym down the drain. Wonderful. Didn't do any work for school either. I was in one of my everything-is-pointless-moods pretty much all weekend.

Spend my whole Sunday in bed. Seriously, I got up, showered, had something to eat and than decided I was going to do absolutely nothing all day long. I just spent my time thinking. Very good idea, especially in my case. Had dinner around 5pm after which I went back to my room working up a nice headache in front of the TV.

Every tiny set back leaves me feeling suicidal. I wonder how long I can keep that up. I want a life. A normal life. Giving up would be so easy...