Not much has changed since my last entry. I've just been hanging out at my room in the city. I haven't done anything constructive just yet. Well I vacuumed our floor and did some laundry, but that about sums it up. I should have typed up a letter for that one job I mentioned and looked for places to intern at.

I didn't return two math books to the university library either. I was hoping to return those and meet up with friend S on the same day and talk about everything that's been happening. Maybe get a bite to eat and see a movie. Traveling three hours just to return a couple of books seemed kinda silly. But he didn't have time for me, so I've been staying at my room since Wednesday.

I feel so much more relaxed now though. Staying at my parents is starting to be increasingly more uncomfortable. It doesn't feel like 'home' anymore. Although my room doesn't really feel like that either. Whenever I'm at my parents I don't really sleep well, but when I'm at my room I do. I guess I've been able to sleep well, because I've made the decision to quit university. That probably has something to do with it as well.

It feels crowded inside my head. Too many things to keep track of.

I've told DL, the guy from my previous school, I was quitting. So that's two people who now know and neither of them is a very close friend. I consider S a good friend, but I doubt he knows me very well.

It's pretty amusing that strangers reading my diary know more intimate things about me than the people around me. I mean, I guess that makes sense, but the few people around me don't even have a clue about the stuff I write about in here. I guess that's my own fault though.

Bleh, there's that feeling again. Wishing I had someone who I could share everything with. It's hard to trust people. There's always that fear that they will judge me. It's either that or I feel guilty burdening them with my problems.

I also feel ... conflicted. I want to call friends and do something fun, but at the same time I feel like shutting everyone out.

Tomorrow I'm taking my brother to visit a school he's interested in. I'm traveling back to my parents with him after that. I think I'll be going back to the city on Monday though. Depends on how I feel I guess. My parents can't talk about anything else, but finding a job. *sigh* That will probably make me want to run back to my room as soon as possible.

I should probably get some sleep. Getting up early is so not my thing.